Don't Ask...

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

And I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If it ain't comin' out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
....
What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble like I've got nothing to say

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

I guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never say...
--Avril Lavigne, "Things I'll Never Say"
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It's just a momentary setback. It'll fade away eventually, right? But WHEN...???

I ask God "Why?"...I get no reply. Am I being told to wait...or is His silence my answer...?

I hate insecurity and uncertainty. But what in life is really a "sure thing"...?

I analyze too much. I read into things too much. When will I learn that it only makes things worse?

It's a rash that won't go away, a disease with no apparent cure...

"I will overcome this. I will!" ~Mr. Darcy (Pride & Prejudice, 1995)

Why is it so hard to just enjoy something and not get attached in the process?

"Oh, but it was just my imagination, runnin' away with me..." ~The Temptations

Cryptic? Maybe. Messed up and pathetic? Most definitely. But they're thoughts I needed to get out of my head, regardless. Now maybe I can get some sleep...
Pray for me, please...